About me!

hello anyone here to see this!

you can call me Luke.
not my real name. but its something!!! it's a star wars refrence

"who are you?"

i was untimely ripped from my mother's womb in february 2008, and i go by he/him.

i'm 17 at the time of making this website. that'll probably change in the future if i submit to the whims of time. im sure if i tried hard enough i could decide not to age though.

when i was born, i was met with the horrible realization of my existence beginning in England. if not worse, the knowlege that this is where i will stay. I'm british. brought up in the crusty little outskirts of london (not proud of this.).

"so what's your deal?"

➧i do not use capital letters at the start of sentences or correcting spelling errors. grammar does not control me and i am too lazy.

➧i am not the most mentally sound. and due to an impressive amount of outside forces, i'm unable to seek medical help. thats kinda why i'm swan diving into the beautiful pit of 'learning html' so i can blog about my issues to strangers looking through neocities i will (hopefully) never meet. it's a healthier coping mechanism than many of my others, i promise you that.

➧i have some form of undiagnosed psychosis brought along by my severe dissasociation. i am wholly untethered from reality it it makes me talk in ways that are probably not socially acceptable. i am vaugely worried about the possibility of developing schizophrenia as i am showing the early symptoms but thats fiiiinee (im coping)

"You are just so interesting and brooding and cool i bet nobody bullied you in high school. tell me some facts about yourself!"

well thank you heres a list of some shit!

➧i love the bands "The Paper Chase" and "John Congleton and the Nightly Nite" !!!!!

➧i animate. i want to get into the animation industry. yes i am becoming increasingly uncomfortable by the prevelance of ai why do you ask

➧i really like doctor who. like to an extent that is not normal. people do not find this annoying about me at all. i am not an unreliable narrator.

➧i believe that all forms of transportation (other than trains) are eldrich abominations. they are like metal animals. far too big, far too strong. if vehicles gained sentience we would actually be fucked. trains are the exception because they are trains.

➧i have a strange mental bond with the rollercoaster "the smiler" at alton towers. no i am not fucking with you i dressed up as the rollercoaster for a school thing when i was about 6-7 years old ive been obsessed with that creature for years. im not objectum or anything but i'd totally fuck it if i could

"what is wrong with you?"

glad you asked
  1. autism
  2. adhd
  3. clinical depression
  4. abuse!!
  5. some sort of delusional disorder and/or dissasociative disorder idk im not diagnosed
  6. PROFESSIONAL LIAR. i have lied about my mental state to my parents since i was around eight. they think i am happy and well rounded!!
  7. quite bad memory loss!!
  8. former fnaf fan
  9. genuinley cringe