Hello! I’m currently not sad! At all!
Its a bit strange being on this website when im not in the mindset to be on it. It doesn’t exactly feel like i made it or wrote any of the entries, because it doesn't feel like me. That’s probably something to do with some kind of disorder.

I think you should get to know me in my current state, its important to know im not just this walking husk of misery i think.

I am cringe but free. And I roleplay regularly. I specifically enjoy oc roleplay with my partner which we normally do over minecraft. We build these massive elaborate sets and act out our stories in them, its sorta like 2-player dnd and my god it is fun. I'm finishing up writing my story for it right now. By the way i love my partner so so so so fucking much he is actually the best thing in my life. We’ve been together 4 years and we help each other through everything. I try not to discuss him a lot here because i want to keep his privacy, and i’d rather not put our relationship on blast to strangers, but he is the light of my life.

I am currently very hyperfixated on the band “Gorillaz” and no its not because they just got added to fortnite. I’m just a fan of animation and gorillaz really inspired me when i was younger !!! ALSO talking of that i just got my grades back for college and i got the highest grade possible. Ive never done that before!! I was always too miserable in high school to do work so i stayed at an average, forgettable standing. I wasn’t failing but i wasn’t exceeding. But i’m in college and studying the things i actually want to and its brilliant.

I've been a bit emotional recently over how much i have healed since high school. And you might raise an eyebrow to that seeing as all the posts on this site seem to portray me as someone who is very much not healed, but trust me i was much worse back then. I dress like myself now, and i have friends. People respect me and high-five me walking down the halls or just call out my name to say hi. People smile at me instead of pulling weird disgusted faces when i walk by. (people actually did that im not fucking with you. Almost 35% of the kids in my year group would look me up and down as if i was a particularly foul smelling turd when i walked by.)

I've actually mastered dressing like the geek i am in public. I wear my doctor who scarf on a regular basis. It looks enough like a regular scarf that most people won’t question it, except those who know about the show well enough. And if you know about the show well enough i will just ask to be your friend. Fool-proof. It probably doesn’t help my case that i sorta look like if the 4th doctor if he was a 12 year old boy (i got mistaken for a 12 year old the other day im still not okay with that. I am a few months away from legal uk drinking age).

THIS IS THE INFODUMP SECTION !! OHHH YEAHHH BABEY!!

I like doctor who. A lot. Its this strange sci-fi show produced by the BBC. Did you know doctor who has been going on since the 60s? 1963 to be exact. I saw a diagram the other day where someone put genshin impact above doctor who in terms of lore and i really had to take a moment. The doctor who lore is so, so vast that its probably impossible for any single human to know it all. The classic (1963-1989) run has 691 episodes. It then went on hiatus for a few years (the wilderness years) and then got picked back up in 2005. It still airs to this day, with the current run having around 200 episodes. Which is already a lot, but that's just the surface. There are HUNDREDS of different audio drama series, with hundreds of thousands of hours of content, which are being pumped out constantly to this day on a weekly to daily basis. There are thousands of novels at least, and multiple different series of novels. These books and audios have their own storylines and characters and fanbases, sometimes following characters barely ever mentioned in the show. There are also spin off shows and so so many more things. Its an abyss. It is infinite and forever expanding. Countless plot holes. And I love it.

The reason the show can go on so long is because the actors are constantly changing. The main character (the doctor) has the ability to regenerate his whole body when almost dying, which makes him (or her!) change into a different actor.

Its a bright day today. Its also a very very grey day because i live in the uk but alas it is also a bright day. And i will spend it inside!!! Reading a book and watching shitty 70s sci fi on my dusty little laptop covered in gorillaz stickers. And i’m happily aware that i am going to see gorillaz perform live in like less than a week and i cannot fucking waaaiiitttt !!!!!!!!!! my dad is awesome, he may not be the most active in my life but he tries his best and he buys me tickets to cool shit and watches shows with me and i love him. I am NOT FATHERLESS AND I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT!!! Anyways, i hope this joy and whimsy hasn’t put you off. I’m sure i’ll be back to misery eventually, but its important for me to remember thats not entirely who i am.