This is prelude to the next few entries. I’m going on holiday with my family tomorrow. I will be out of the country for 10 days in a very hot place. I cant handle the heat. I cant wear tank tops due to the scars on my shoulder. My mum is angry, shes saying i’m being stupid because i will overheat without wearing tank tops. She does not understand why i am refusing. Her being pissed at me for refusing to wear tank tops is better than the alternative.
It will be a fun holiday. I am very privileged to go to a place like this, i am excited. But i am scared. Spending time around my parents on vacation is usually akin to cia torture methods if it is for too long. And man, 10 days does not feel like a lot until you’re there. Then it feels like a century.
Oooiuuijjjhhh FUUCKK man why did i need to be so mentally ill when i was 16???????? Why did i make the scars raised this is some bullshit man i cant even use makeup because 1: i dont know how to use makeup and 2: the scars are raised so it’ll do fuck all. Whatever man i’ll live.
Im going to write something and put it here for each day. I don't know if i’ll upload every day or if i’ll just just write multiple days in one post but i AM going to document this.